I am drowning…I am drowning in:
Shame Guilt Anger Fierce HATE Insecurity Fear
I am trying to pray. I am trying to be more love centered. I am trying to be kind. I am trying not to run away.
But…
All I want to do is:
Scream Throw Kick Beat Yell Cry Lash Out Breakdown Sob
I am trying to have patience. I am trying to let go. I am trying to stop self sabotaging. I am trying to keep looking at the sky.
What is it that I don’t feel like it is ok to FEEL all these things? Why am I still so unable to let go of the bad habits that I know in my brain lead to dysfunction?
Where is my STRONG, BADASS, FIERCE, REVOLUTIONARY, WONDER WOMAN SELF and how do I pull myself out of this abyss?
How do I remember to:
Stay in the Present Recognize MY Blessings Enjoy Every Moment Remember it all Happens on Purpose Stay IN the Love Hold ON to the Happy
As women we all live in a world where we feel these conflicts in one way or another…perhaps the answer is REALLY, TRULY as simple as the one I tell:
my clients my lover my friends my fellow activists my family my colleagues
“Do or do not…there is no try.” -Yoda